I saw somebody died last week. He died because of cancer.
His final moment wasn't like what you see in movies, where everybody is gathering around the dying person and they are holding him while the person said his last words and then slowly exhale the last breath.
It was that afternoon where I sat with his wife and talking about how she probably couldn't handle seeing her husband go away. 5 minutes later, he is already gone without someone even noticing. We tried in disbelief to find his pulse, I thought: I'm so bad at sensing pulse and heartbeat, right? Sometimes it's just hard to find any, isn't it? There's no way it would be this soon! My other friends rushed out to searching for the doctor, the wife screamed in pain calling her husband's name over and over again, hoping he still could hear us. The nurse came in to check, but it turned out there was no longer life in him.
I could still recall this exact moment in my head until today. It always got me goosebumps just thinking about it. I still got the same chills in my bone.
On the next day I was in the mortgage, seeing the dead body being prepared for the funeral. I was there when the corpse has been cleaned and wrapped up with kafan, on the last moment when the family could see his face for the last time. I still recall how shaken the daughter was, when she cried over my shoulder. Everyone in the room shed tears, including me. Eventhough I am not the one who cry when people are around, I cried that noon. It's so painful to see their hearts breaking.
What happened lately got me really wondering, what is it to live as if you might not be around the next day.
So often we just sit there and take for granted that we're gonna see people over and over again.
We don't really think about the fact that the day that we've been given is a blessing. We are so busy tackling our daily routines that we don't pause for a moment and say to the people we hold so dearly about how much their existence means to us.
We often don't say that because it seems too much and too serious. It seems overly emotional. And yet really thinking about things and looking at the real perspective of life,
the truth is
we really don't know that we have tomorrow.
So,
to the person reading this right now,
thank you for being my friends
I might haven't said it before, and you might not realize it,
but please know this:
I appreciate you.
I'm so grateful of you in my life.
You're such a blessing to me and anyone else around you
and regardless to anything, I'm so lucky to have known you.
So no matter where you are,
whether it's a quarter mile away
or halfway across the world,
I'm glad you are there.