16 Januari 2015

What a great day!

Hari ini tuh ASIK banget guyss. Pagi-pagi jam 9 aku udah keluar (tumben banget,mengingat aku udah lulus studkol n lagi ga ada kegiatan). Ngapain nad?

Jadi gini, kemarin sore aku pergi ke ATM Commerzbank,mau ambil duit dari ATM Mandiriku. Naah, awalnya aku udah coba di ATM Spardabank, tapi ga bisa -_-

Trus aku ke ATM Commerz,dan... kartuku ketelan. Raawwwrrrrrr.

Mencoba untuk tenang malamnya, aku pikir semua akan baik-baik saja. Besoknya kan aku tinggal ke Banknya,trus minta petugasnya untuk bukain automatnya. I got my card back, alles klar, alles schick.

Tapi ternyata semua BELUM baik-baik saja.

Besoknya (hari ini) aku datang pagi-pagi ke bank,daaannn... kata petugasnya mereka ga punya hak untuk buka mesin ATMnya. What the hell man? Aku ga habis pikir deh. Itu kan jelas-jelas ditempatin di banknya, dan katanya itu mesinnya bukan punya bank mereka, tapi punya firma lain. Trus aku tanya lagi, firma yang mane mbak? Trus dia bilang, das ist egal, kamu mau datang ke firmanya minta bukain itu mesin juga paling kartumu udah dibuang! Asjhdkjgalivgaztfuze!

Sambil mencoba untuk jaga ekspresi muka seramah mungkin, aku bilang makasih dan keluar dari bank itu. Apa-apaan iniiiiii T_______T

sampe diluar bank, aku ga tahan. Air mata langsung keluar tanpa permisi. Padahal itu di Marktplatz, yang rame banget. Aku udah berasa main drama aja.

Aku isi rekening deutsche bank ku gimana ini? Kan aku harus perpanjang visaaaaa ><

Setelah beberapa menit duduk nangis di marktplatz dan ngabarin papa kalo ATMnya udah ga ada harapan lagi (maafkan aku papa T.T), aku memantapkan tekadku kembali untuk melaksanakan agenda No. 2 ku hari ini : Daftar ASQ untuk jadi Gaststudent. Daaaannnn...ternyata tantangan hari ini bukan cuma masalah kartu-ketelan-automat-bego aja. Aku nyasar!

Padahal aku udah sering ke Löwengebäude, tapi untuk hari yang indah ini ternyata aku nyasar. Sepertinya otakku belum tenang sepenuhnya setelah kehilangan ATM. Astaghfirullah...

Untunglah, urusan ASQ di Löwengebäude cepat kelar. Semesterbeitrag pun udah ditransfer. Okayyy Nada you did at least a great job!

Dan setelah itu aku pergi ke Baumarkt,beli karton untuk pindahan. Dan itu tokonya masya Allah jauh banget ampe rasanya aku udah nyampe Köthen -_-

dan...aku nyasar lagi. (which is no wonder at all, because I even forgot where the Lion-Building is)

Geez. That was lame. I translated “Löwengebäude” to english “Lion-building” and when I read it now it sounds ridiculous.

Setelah jalan kesana kemari nyari tokonya, thanks to Google Map, I found it! Dan aku beli 3 karton. Langsung bayar serta merta,udah ga ada waktu lagi soalnya,berhubung belum shalat dzuhur dan waktu dzuhur di winter itu singkat banget. ew. Ternyata masih ada ketidakberuntunganku yang tersisa, aku kehilangan satu karton. I lost it! It costed 2 Euros each! And the store is located out of nowhere! Masa aku harus balik kesana lagi x(

Di perjalanan pulang, apa lagi? Tentu saja, tram dan busnya penuh supaya perjalanan nada tambah menyenangkan. Ugh.

Hal menyenangkannya belum sampai situ saja, bahkan beberapa pasang mata melihatku dengan aneh,bahkan ada yang keliatan TAKUT. O ye.

You know what? You know how it feels? You know how awkward was it, when I went in the store and they're accidentally playing a radio and it was telling about muslim terrorist and P*gida (anti islam) and everyone in the store just stare at you?

Hmmpphh.

Dan yang buat aku marah, aku pernah baca status di facebook yang isinya gini “alhamdulillah mereka dibunuh”. WUT. I mean, are you serious? You're telling people that you are a proud muslim and you said stupid thing like that? Not only you (whoever who wrote the status), but to those two people too, who killed people because their prophet is mocked. Whoa, did they even think?

Pertama, I know you love Rasulullah so much. I know. And maybe my love towards Rasulullah is not as rasant as yours. But no matter how much it is, it doesn't mean you are allowed to take someone's precious life!

Image muslim, yang beberapa tahun belakangan ini semakin baik, jadi hancur begitu saja karena ada orang lugu yang membunuh orang karena dia membela Rasulullah. Dunia Barat yang sebenarnya sudah mulai menghormati keberadaan islam, jadi berbalik arah dan tidak respect lagi dengan Islam. Islam yang sempurna, yang dengan semua pengorbanan Rasulullah SAW yang sudah menegakkannya, runtuh image nya di mata dunia. Bukannya Muslim itu rahmatan lil alamin? Rahmat untuk seluruh alam? Tapi kok justru ada muslim yang membunuh? Kok ada yang bersyukur karna ada yang terbunuh?

Dan satu hal lagi. Ada yang bilang gini, “jutaan orang meninggal di palestina tapi dunia diam saja. 12 orang meninggal, tapi seluruh dunia gempar dan menyatakan berduka. Bahkan pimpinan muslim juga ikut-ikutan”

Bagiku sih, pemimpin-pemimpin itu tidak salah kok. Justru itu tindakan yang mulia! Istilahnya nih, air tuba dibalas air susu. Subhanallah, kalau orang-orang lain menyadari itu, mereka pasti jadi ngeh kalau Islam itu indah banget. Itu yang diajarkan Rasulullah SAW kan?

Setelah kupikir-pikir, emangnya pernah ya, Sahabat-Sahabat Rasulullah yang membunuh orang (bukan di peperangan) karena ada yang menyakiti Rasulullah SAW. Ada nggak? Perasaan nih, Rasulullah bahkan dilempari kotoran, tapi tidak ada Sahabat yang bertindak konyol seperti orang yang di perancis itu. Ya kan?

Kalau kita mencintai Allah dan RasulNya,ya lakukan apa yang diperintahkan dan jauhi yang dilarang. Udah. Period. Titik. Punkt. Ga ada yang ditambah-tambah. Kalau kata orang papua,

tra usah bikin gerakan tambahan!

Disini, aku minta maaf ya kalo kata-kataku ada yang nyelekit. Soalnya ini uneg-unegku belakangan ini, ditambah lagi pengalamanku yang sangat super hari ini, semua uneg-unegku itu harus dikeluarin hehe.

Jadi, kesimpulannya, dear muslims, behave! Kalau kita muslim, kita harus tunjukkan pada dunia akhlak yang baik, soalnya mata dunia semua tertuju pada kita sekarang. Watch your words, don't let it be sword to stab yourself. Mau jihad? Aku juga mau.

Jaman sekarang ini udah ga efektif jihad dengan senjata. Jihadnya dengan otak, skill, kecakapan. Katanya mau tegakkan khilafah kan? Kembangkan kemampuan kita semaksimal mungkin. Cuma baca n hafal Al-Qur'an itu ga cukup, cuma ritual ibadah itu ga cukup untuk membangkitkan khilafah. Khilafah butuh politisi hebat, ahli medis cakap, ilmuwan jenius, pendidik kompeten, bahkan artis yang berakhlak, bukan cuma ustadz!

Dan satu lagi, bagi muslim yang lagi di eropa, yang sama-sama merasakan suasana tidak enak ini, tetap semangat! pas

Sekian celotehan dari saya.

In my dream

She comes back

She says she’s sorry

The skilled hands those I missed cares my own

The apologetic eyes that look at me

the voice I want to hear

Tenderly telling me not to cry

If you hold me in my arms

and you disappear

The tears flow and my pillow becomes wet

At last I wake up from my sleep

Every morning is always like that…

I wish I would fall asleep forever like this

I wake up with her presence still…

although I hope I don’t dream again,

Like today, it seems I fall asleep with her presence

She’s smiling

It’s really been too long

I’ve missed that expression

She’s my superhero, isn’t she?

She’s walking away

Caring another person

My chest ‘s like it’s being crushed under a heavy weight

I’m dreaming again, right?

Cold sweat runs down my body

It hurts to dream about things,

I hate to remember

I can’t do anything all day long

We’ll spend lot of time together, right…

I wish I would fall asleep forever like this

I wake up with her presence still…

although I hope I don’t dream again,

Like today, it seems I fall asleep with her presence

Everything is becoming cloudy

but her image is getting stronger

Like I dreamed yesterday, today she comes to me

Now I wish I don’t have to sleep alone anymore

I wish I would fall asleep forever like this

I wake up with her presence still…

If I could only see you today too,

If I could do it again,

If I come back again…

If you slept by my side one more time

If that happened once again,

I wouldn’t want to wake up

BESsBESsBESsBESsBESsBESsBESsBESsBESsBESsBESsBESsBESsBESsBESsBESs

The Beginning

It was friday, I was sitting in my classroom and someone taped a brochure on the wall of my class. I didn´t pay attention of it at all firstly. The next lesson is math, and I had semester test on the next week. My teacher, Mr. Mula Tambun Saribu (he is my favorite math teacher) came to me and asked

"have you read that brochure?“

I said "No, I´m not into it."

“Where do you like to study, kid?“

„I´m really dying to study in Unpad sir! I want to study medicine there. I want to be a doctor.“

he didn´t agree with me. He said that that´s a shame if I take medicine for college. He said that technic is the one thing that suit me very well, considering of my good score in math and several lesson that connected with counting. He was angry at me. Even he said, if I really want to study medicine, so I ought to study not in Indonesia but abroad! He asked me to read the brochure. The brochure told about a management called Jerman Manajemen, which help students to study in Germany. And there was a presentation on Sunday. Mr. Mula said that I have to see the presentation, it will be good for me. I said, that I have no passion to study in Germany. And he forced me just for seeing the presentation. I use the test on next week as my excuse for not going to the presentation.

„I will have test on monday! I have to study, so I can´t go there“

„The test is not important! This presentation is very useful for you. This is for the future!“

I didn´t have any word to say then -_-

I gave up. My teacher won. Finally I came to the presentation with my mom, Anita, and Irham. Then..my eyes were fully opened! I was so enthusiast. Suddenly it felt like an old memory wink at me. I am so happy, I can be like Ikal and Arai!

Irham and Anita are very enthusiast too. All of us were starting to wonder on how it will be like in Germany, how we will be together along the way there... Remembering this, I am so sad. At the end, they aren´t going here with me. Our destiny is to be separated, how hard we fight to get it, if God decide something different from our plan, we can do just nothing. But I still feel your presence, guys. You are all still close to me, no matter how far we are. Our friendship is too strong, even a thousand miles can´t break it.

I still remember what Irham has said to me, he asked me to take some pictures in Germany, and I have to write his name there. Sure, my brother, I´ll do it then!

To be studying abroad is not easy. Especially for me. My family is not that rich, and studying abroad is such a heavy thing to get. Actually, my parents have sparred the money for preparation of my medicine study. Everyone know that studying medicine needs much money, right? Because mama and papa knew that I want to be a doctor since my childhood, they prepare it earlier. With all the kindness of my parents, they did their job nicely and save some of the money for my study. The amount has reached 200 million rupiahs, that´s all for my future college. But the plan has changed, I´m not just going to study medicine, I also want to study abroad. The counting that Mr. Wünsche has done, the amount is nearly the same. Studying in Germany is actually not as expensive as in Indonesia. Even it´s cheaper. For medicine, that is known by Indonesian people as the most expensive faculty, we don´t have to pay as much as in Indonesia. The most expensive public University is not more than 700€.

We felt safe in our heart, realizing that our money is enough for my study in Germany. But there is a new rule, students who have interest for studying in Germany should be 600 hours Deutsch learning. It will not finish if I start the languange learning when I go to Germany. Mr. Wünsche made a decision to held a German Course in Indonesia, so the students will make it in the right time. Extra course in Indonesia, extra money we need. It freaks me out, do my parents have enough money for it?

Mom and dad said not to worry, it´s all their responsible. All I have to do is studying. As simple as that. Of course it´s not simple to me. I really don´t want to put heavy burdens on my parents´back. The itme went by, national examination came closer, and I don´t know from where will my parents get money. Can I finally go to Germany or not? This question was spinning in my head, while I prepared myself to face the examination. I studied really hard, just to make my parents proud of me. I don´t want to disappoint them again like I did in junior high school. I failed to get the highest score in final examination of JHS. I still remember that day, when the result´s announced, I am not even in the big 10. I went home that afternoon with an unbearable tears. it´s not about the rank anyway. I just wanted to get good score just for my parents. They have done million things to make me happy, and for me, my score will make them happy too.

Alhamdulillah, I reached my goal. In high school, I finally got the first rank for final examination in Papua region! On the graduation day, I had to come to school earlier because I had to make preparation for my performance. Yes, I performed a traditional dance from West Sumatera with my friends. Deep in my heart, I felt my heart beated so fast because I have waited for this moment a long time. I want to see my parents´ happy smile. I have done with my costume and my make-up, suddenly there was an announcement from headmaster for me. I was asked to come to teacher´s room. Then I´m exactly asked to be interviewed from a local TV station in Papua, Papua TV. I was a little confused, why do I have to? Why not somebody else? I was currently wearing an eye-catching outfit and I knew that it´s too weird to appear in TV with it. But Mr. Wayan (the headmaster) kept insisting.

And! The reporter whispered that to me! I heard it first from nobody but her! She said that I am interviewed because I got highest score in final examination for Papua region. What a surprise! Actually, I can´t believe that I heard it from someone I didn´t know. Why didn´t Mr. Wayan tell me himself? But still, thank you! Hahaha. I was so happy and I can´t help to not move from my place. I waited my parents calmly and made decision not to tell them early. I let them know by the announcement, not from me so it will be a big surprise! ^^

Well, I´m only the best score in Papua region, it´s not that great. But I´m very thankful for that, because I could see my parents´ happy tears, not their tears of sadness like I used to make them sad day by day. So it´s me, the girl who has graduated from high school. I am facing real world now!

Fly away

This is my first post! I mean,the post that I do in Germany. I love this town, but I love my hometown more, Papua!

On September 2nd 2013, I left Indonesia. I left my beloved family, I have gone out of my comfort zone. I didn´t cry that time. But after leaving here for 2 weeks, I started to feel weird. I felt that there´s something missed in my life. At first I really have no idea what I really feel. I was sitting alone in my room, accompanied by silence, I looked around and wondered “What am I doing here?”

stupid thoughts came into my mind, this is not where I belong! In a blick my head was twisted and I suddenly forgot my aim to be in Germany. I have forgotten, that those were all my decisions! I am the person, who asked her parents to take college abroad. I am the girl who dreamed of being like “Arai”. Do you know Arai? He is my favorite one. I know his name from a phenomenal book, Laskar Pelangi. That book really has inspired me. It tells about how life can be turned out to be so blue, how people could stand up when the other said that it,s impossible. Arai is not the main character of this novel, he is just a side character, the cousin of the main character, Ikal. Ikal and Arai were a dreamer. They came from a small city that nobody never care of them. They are very poor, but Arai never had a sad face on. He always find a good thing to make Ikal smiling again. In their high school, Arai ever said to his brother, they will go studying in Paris! Ikal said that it´s to much to be dreaming of, but Arai set a stone head and say surely they will go there someday. After their high school graduation, both of them went to Jakarta, unfortunately they are accepted in different university there, so they were separated for a while. Some years had passed, und Ikal already successed to have his bachelor. He didn´t hear anything from his brother in those years. But he never forget, what Arai has said to him. He sent applications to get scholarship in other country to accomplish his dream. He went to an office and was being interviewed for the study. He did the interview very well and got the scholarship to University of Sorbonne, France. He was very happy but he was thinking about Arai. “How is he now? I wish we could go there together!” he was still in the office, he heard his brothers voice. That guy came out of an interview room, and surprisingly, it was Arai! And he will go studying in Sorbonne too!

Laskar Pelangi is a book which was written based on the authors real story. Ikal and Arai really exist in reality. It gives me big hope, that I can be like them too. I love the quote that Arai said

“Have a dream, and God will hold it”

-Arai-

Since that time, I always dream to study abroad too. Thanks God! I got it too! My story is not as amazing as Arai's, but I´m feeling so lucky to be me. I have my own story,my own world, my own family, and it´s all wonderful!

By dreaming gives our brain suggestion, without our conciousness, it stays in our mind forever and work to reach it. I will keep my big dream, because Arai has taught me not to be scared to dream.