I actually should be studying for the exam right now. But my body refuses so I think I should write some thoughts that have been lingering on my mind these 2 days during my resting time.
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"Haben Sie nie krank gefühlt?"
"Nein,gar nicht."
It's amazing how life can flip 180 degrees in one night. You felt great the night before, planning on your next day hoping you can be as productive as what you did today but plan is plan. We have no control on what happens next.
It does feel hard. It makes you want to go back and cry on your parents shoulder. But no, you have to learn. Problem isn't meant to make you hurt, to make you stronger that is.
When it seems like everything is against your will, think again. You've got one problem that suffers you a lot, fails you at any aspirations you had, but try to count your blessing. You still can breath normally, you still have food to eat, roof above your head, warm blanket to cuddle in. You got a loving family who prays for you all the time, friends who wish you a soon recovery. You aren't situated at the war places where you have to be afraid to be bombed every second of your life. You still can enjoy peace, being able to walk, to write, to read, to see.
The list still goes on.
Now that I think about it, I just realized how meaningful my name is.
Shakira is an Arabic female given name meaning "thankful". It is the feminine active participle of the verb شَكَرَ, "to be thankful".-Wikipedia
Maybe this is why my parents gave me this name. So that I remember to be thankful for everything that I have. To appreciate life, eventhough sometimes it sucks. Oh no, actually life doesn't suck. Its just a tiny tiny portion of it that sucks and human tends to make a big fuss about it.
If life seemingly becomes so hard, count your blessings. Be grateful. You feel crap because you just haven't been thanking enough.
"...Allah does not intend to make difficulty for you, but He intends to purify you and complete His favor upon you that you may be grateful."
[QS. Al-Maidah : 6]